i have done as much as i could possibly accomplish right now. and the days just seem to go onward without any specific purpose. i've been looking for a sign to show that i was taking the right actions, and now that it seems as though i am stranded without any signs, and it's leaving me with the conclusion that i must be doing something wrong. you're not even mine, but it feels like you are, a little too much to not even be togethr, and i almost said it to your face bit i bit my tongue in the moment just in time. and now i am wishing that i said it. i wish i said everything. about this stupid brick wall i feel in between us, making me.feel distant from you. even when i'm right next to you. i want people to know about us, i want people to know what we mean to each other. but we're no together and that's the thing. i don't know what's wrong with me. but it's holding us up.