right now i should be thinking with my heart not my cold gray matter. i get these good and wonderful feelings inside of me and they stay inside of me because of you. But when i am not with you, i feel like i am a burden. like somethong dragging and slowing you down. communicating my feelings are one of my top priorities, or should be.
i'm getting uncertainties, the weird and horrible kind of uncertainties which are stimulating my worries.. But come on bee, your outdated stale ideas and bad habits are holding me back making me feel insecure. I can't let them stand in my way, i need to realize that it's not as much as i'm thinking it is. I am so impatient for this arrival and i'm nervous about what it will mean for you. These dreams are still alive in my mind, vibrant as they've always been.. but it seems unless i don't let them out into the real world, they'll soon fall apart! :(